We had a little storm here in Oregon a week or two ago. It was supposedly going to be the Big Wind Storm of 2016. Not quite as intense as they thought but super fun to watch out our front Hobbit door. I think one of the biggest struggles here in this new diabetic life is how to continue to enjoy the small things. Every second of the day my mind is filled with how to keep Ocean in the best health possible. As I think about that I'm also thinking about his future. Because of course any damage that may be done here as a toddler will greatly affect him as an adult. Consistent high blood sugars cause damage to the organs and resistance to insulin and obviously create a difficult time of being healthy with T1D as an adult. So each day I wake up and immediately worry about his ketone levels, his BG levels. Hopefully his BG has been in range during the night, but that only seems to happen about 50% of the time at this point 7 months post diagnosis. I'm sure that will get better but he is so sensitive to carbs and insulin. Just a tiny bit of each can make a big difference. And then throughout the day I try to figure out how to constantly be giving him water to flush out the ketones and figure out what in the hell he will actually eat so that I can give him insulin. Never mind the underlying feelings of guilt, fear and anxiety that is always there. Some days when we try to have an adventure it's a disaster. Nothing goes right with the diabetes, nothing goes right with the weather, nothing goes right with my anxiety. And then some days when we keep it simple and we pretend to be Tarzan as we watch the storm from our Hobbit front door, we are joyful. Let's pray for more simple joyful days.